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Make Your Own Flag: A Premstar Santana Interview.

Premstar Santana

I have a huge respect for actresses and actors. To be able to let go of any inhibitions and preconceived identities and to take on the emotions and forms of a completely separate entity than yourself aint easy. A lot of us are stuck in ourselves, yet we dont even know ourselves. Sometimes it’s hard for us, as women, to break out of the rolls assigned to us. But we have to, and artists like Premstar are perfect walking examples of how amazing it can be to break free and explore our emotions, embrace our “ugly”, and to create our own identities.

Who is Premstar Santana?
I can’t remember where I saw it, but it was a photo of the great Tilda Swinton with the tag line: “Actress, Artiste, Agente Provacatrice”. When I read it, I thought, YES, that’s me, or at least the super hero version of me 😉 So, guess I’m stealing Tilda’s tag line, or sharing it I suppose. But really, who am I? That’s such a hard question, depending on how you mean it. Inside, I would say simply that I am a lover of truth. Outside, one might say I am a tattooed, ex-hairdresser, turned actor. But when it comes down to it, I’m a human being, making my way through the universe, creating and sharing along the way. Trying my best to appreciate every second of it.

What are some of your obsessions right now?
Gosh, that’s a hard one. To be honest, I’m always obsessing over something. Whether it be Downton Abbey, or peanut butter (both of which I am truly obsessed with at the moment). But lately, artistically speaking I’m obsessed with capturing the ugliest of emotions. I don’t mean rage or anger necessarily, but deep pain, regret, or loss. Emotions that put you in the most “ugliest” state. I guess I’m obsessed with ugly right now. Funny, I never thought of it that way, but I like it. I like “ugly”.

jules3web

Premstar as “Jules”

Out of all of the creative outlets in the world, why is acting have such a strong pull on you?
For as long as I can remember, people have always said things to me like “you’re too sensitive” or “you feel too much”. And I never knew how to handle those remarks. Most of the time I would just completely shut down. I remember beginning to think I must be crazy, because I was feeling this loss of control, and it scared me so deeply. I just didn’t know how to put my feelings in a box, I still don’t. When I discovered acting, and that I could be an actor for a living, I knew instantly that I had found my place in the world. I found a place where feeling TOO much was celebrated, and honored. Where being sensitive is a skill, a talent, not something negative or a sign of weakness. Through acting I am able to connect with all that emotion and channel it into story telling, into art.

How do you feel acting has helped you in your journey as a woman?
I’ve had to learn to truly speak up for myself. The film industry is a male dominated industry, even on the indie level (All that is changing though) and it can make you feel like your all alone, left to fend for yourself. I’ve been in films where there was nudity, and/or simulated sex, and if it’s not a safe and supportive environment it can be quite nerve wrecking, and scary. I’ve been lucky enough where most everyone I’ve worked with so far has been pretty amazing, but I have been on sets where that wasn’t the case. I guess there came a point where I was like “I’m not just a puppet, I’m an artist, and I have a say in this too”. Basically, I realized I don’t have to put up with any shit. And now I don’t, and it feels fantastic.

lisa6webPremstar as “Lisa”

 As an actress, it seems you would have to be very in-tune with your mind and your body. Do You have a good connection/healthy relationship with your body?
True. And I think I’ve just recently found that harmony, that healthy relationship with my mind/body/soul. It’s a process, a journey, and it comes and goes. But ultimately I’ve never felt better about myself. It’s just about giving yourself a break when you stray from that connection, not beating yourself up. Finding something, whether it be yoga, meditation, running, etc; to center yourself, and reconnect with who you truly are. Take time to discover, and celebrate yourself.

Have you always been that way?
No. In the past, like most people, I have struggled with things like body issues, insecurities, and addiction. And still, these issues surface every now and then, but I now have a way to deal with them, or rather, explore them and heal them.

What advice would you give to people having trouble following their natural identity or creative instincts?
Say it out loud. Say what you’re afraid of out loud. To yourself, or to someone close to you. When you say things out loud, you’ll often times see how silly they are. How simple they really are, and how you are completely capable of conquering those fears.
Then say what you want out loud, speak your dreams. Seriously, say it LOUD. You’ll see how possible things really are. You’ll see how tangible and real your dreams can be. Because, anything is possible, and once you’ve set that into motion nothing can stop you except yourself. When you act on your creative instincts/inspiration, it always ends up in great reward. Go for it!
Last but not least, you are not your past. Live in the moment, and don’t let your past control your future. Now is all that exists, so try your best to embrace it.

veronica6webPremstar as “Veronica”

What is something you feel more girls need to talk about?
Feminism. It’s become a dirty word again, but it’s still a needed political perspective and movement, and it might be more needed than ever before. We are still living in a culture that condones and encourages violence against women, particularly sexual violence. Women have come a long way, but as long we continue to live in a rape-culture where misogyny is celebrated, we still have a long way to go. Feminism isn’t just about equal pay, which we still don’t have, it is about so much more, it contains a legacy of changing systemic violence against the oppressed whether they be women, gay, brown, or poor. It’s a much bigger fight than most people recognize and I think this is something all girls, women, and really everyone with a political conscience should be talking about.

 What would you say right now to the girl that is being sexualized and manipulated by society?
Don’t put up with any shit. Choose your battles, but speak up and speak out about injustices you notice around you any chance you get.
I think Björk said it best with her song “Declare Independence”:

“Declare independence

Don’t let them do that to you
Declare independence
Don’t let them do that to you

Make your own flag!
Make your own flag!
Make your own flag!
Make your own flag!

Raise your flag!”

To learn more about Premstar Santana visit her website, see her in action by watching “Her Changing Faces, and visit her Etsy Shop.
Also, follow her on Twitter and Facebook and tell her what you thought of her IAG interview!

~Uni

One comment on “Make Your Own Flag: A Premstar Santana Interview.

  1. bepuntokom
    March 5, 2013

    Soldiers of love and True we are!!

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